a new one was found. Caio Fern, 1999, acrylic on paper.

I found this work from 1999.This was the year I started to paint.  I remember that only made this to see if it was possible to paint without using white paint.
The white parts you see are from the paper, not paint. I used a photo- self portrait as model.

Caio Fern, 1999, acrylic on paper.

Caio Fern, self portrait, acrylic on canvas – 2012.

yeah, again, very up set with the photo…. you know all the story. the painting has much more colors and it isn’t fair…. blah blah blah…… you know. But it isn’t fair at all to do not be able to show the painting the way it is.

aaahhhhhhh…….. this is only a self portrait.
I was a bit tired of composing and creativity so decided to take a small piece of canvasses and do a direct simple self-portrait. only for the pleasure to paint.
I had this “idea” last night… can you believe I went to sleep and spent all the time dreaming about painting this ? every single brush stroke. hahahah. what an exiting dream. hahaha. So I woke up, had a nice breakfast and started to paint…. soon I am going to work so I got to post it as fast as possible.
the face grew and I lost control, as always, but I like it , it is the opposite of everything I’ve done lately… sure I love what I’ve painted… all the work of this years and last year too… I do. I am happy with my production a lot and intend to get deeper into it…. but it is good to take a day only for express myself in a different way… not less sincere or true.
All the colors of paint I used were the same I do expect white… I took my best white paint and mixed with white pigment in dust…. but I didn’t blend very well that is the reason you see the “pox” on the skin… I loved this texture. I don’t know how you see it by photo but here in front of me it is giving the sensation of pure skin.

see you.

DO I LOOK ROMANTIC AS I WAS PROPOSING ? I PUT AN END ON THIS SOCIAL CRAP.

It is sad, pathetic… but true.
There is a time in the life of a single straight poor man that things start to get complicated. If he hasn’t friends to talk about football ( soccer ) or play poker his social life gets reduced to the rare opportunities to go out that appear out of nowhere.
I hate football and to me playing poker is pretty much a similar activity than making a pact with the devil. So I have no male friends and don’t miss then at all, is a relief to do not have to talk about cars and sports.
My social life after 30 something years old got pretty lame and I didn’t do anything to improve it. I had a nasty past and did everything a sick mind can imagine and more. I am not proud, I got exhausted of it all.
But last Saturday I had this opportunity to go out with a nice woman after to go to a party in the evening. But the invitation only showed up in the afternoon.
It was unexpected as I didn’t have intention to not even go to the little party in the evening.
Well, I am a Latin tropical man and grew up under this dogma that if a pussy calls, you attend making no questions, only go there and do your macho business. Always alert as a soldier.
It was late. I decided to wear something light as it is summer here. But I had to see if these were the right clothes for the occasion.
Few weeks ago I did the favor to break the mirror of my bedroom so the only mirror now is the tiny one in my studio. The dark spots you see aren’t any attempt to create a vintage effect, the mirror exists for almost 70 years.
I couldn’t stand up in front of it to see my clothes. I had to cringe. Not able to see I decided to pick up my small camera and take some shots.
Not only this.
I had to cut my hair and see how much, if you follow my blog you already know that I cut it myself doing two pig tails and cut with no mercy.
This pair of shoes isn’t the one I intended to use, this is the one I use to go to supermarket. The new and good one is all dusty and I had to polish before to leave.
The belt too, the one I used is old , my brand new one is in my closet and I had to pierce a new hole with nail and hammer.
Not saying I still had to take a shower and brush my teeth and shave.
After to have taken the first pic I had a weird feeling looking to the image on the monitor. Something was very wrong.
The second pic already shows my unhappy face towards this puzzle of what I was feeling about the way I looked.
The third pic gave me real cramps:
“DO I LOOK AS I AM PROPOSING!!?” NO FUCKING WAY IN HELL !!! ‘”
You must to think it is ridiculous but I got in panic.
I even tried to take a pic on the sofa but wasn’t able to see anything so decided to go back to my bedroom and change clothes.
On the way to shower I turned on and gave up about going out.
The image of me on my knees as I was asking made me really depressed.
.No shining new shoes.
.No cutting hair.
.No shower.
.No new hole on the brand new belt.
I spent the night in front of the TV watching Gran Torino eating pop corn with my dogs barking to the neighbors at the gate. And the most important: Saving my sweat blessed money.
It is sad , pathetic… but true.
But today I received a Christmas card from a friend and it was very nice of her. I love this girl… and love the fact she is at the other side of the country and will never bother me to go out accepting me the way I am, unsympathetic, anti-social, judgmental, not romantic and annoying. Uff… free.

Acrylic on canvas by Caio Fern 2011

 

 

yes , I finished one yesterday and started this one today…. done !!!
I just wanted to put it in practice a little bit more.
I don’t think this is going to be the new way my work is going to take. They are only experiments I am doing here. No commitment  

Hope you enjoy.

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A pure Caio Fern – Acrylic on canvas 2011 – Grapehead

A pure Caio Fern this time…. only a single blur in the middle of the raw canvasses and nothing else.
This year I have focused a lot on composition… it gets as simple as possible but have tried to find many different ways to deal with angles, positions and distortions. But on this work I decided that only wanted to go back a little bit and focus on what really matters : pictorial values and brush strokes. plots !! plots baby !! I wanted to solve all the issues inside the image as narrow as possible. There is no reason to go to distractions as subjects, facts, ideas……. the painting can be an expression by itself… so let it be !!! ( see all the 2011 paintings here : www.silentspots.blogspot.com )
I took photos of me under the trellis grapevine that has at my backyard ( because of this and the colors I call this work GrapeHead ), So the colors you see are not my creation , aren’t result of creativity… they are only the shade and the few sun light passing among the leafs and landing on my face.
It was painted last night. I was at my studio enjoying the aquarium ( that got new babies, they just born, they are tiny and are hidden behind the dense plants, they are blue and very thin yet and listening many albums of bands with lots of extremely distorted guitar effects. I was in the mood to work pretty much this what you see on the painting , layers and coats of brush strokes not concerned with form or proportions , like the guitars I was listening.
So I turned on the TV ( at other room of the house ) as loud as possible and had a marathon of Evangelical TV shows. hahahah! Televangelists talking about Jesus as loud as possible ?!! I am in !!! The neighbors must to love me now. I spent the whole night listening the Word and praying and painting and not giving a crap to the rest of the world. hahahah!!! AMEN !  I love this.

When I finished was very late , very cold , I was freezing. I took the painting to my bedroom and hanged by the side of the TV spending the whole night looking to it and watching … guess what I found on opened TV?… GILMORE GIRLS !!!!! hahahah!!! what a perfect night !!!! In Portuguese…. If those girls are annoying speaking with no pause in English imagine when dub to Portuguese. But I love it. It made me remember years and years ago when I had nothing , only a dusty TV in a dusty dark living room and only this kind of series on afternoon. My life is so poetic I love their little town and everything else.

So I slept last night all proud of my work looking to it and saying ” Oh Caio… this work is brilliant , it is a pure Caio Fern’s essence and such a mix of Rembrandt with Monet !!!! The Civilization is so lucky for having you living and producing among and for then !!!!! God bless my geniality !!!!
The night was really freezing and I shacked in bed a lot. So I slept only one hour or so.
When I woke up in the morning all happy with my new work, even before to go to bathroom I opened all the windows to see the painting and…..: But… is this it ? What a crap !!!! No… Is this what I painted last night ? Can’t be. I think the little fairy that destroys artist’s carrier came here at night when I was sleeping and messed it up.
So I worked for more 40 minutes on it this morning and this is it… yes it is… I won’t change. Life sucks and I hate my painting.

Have a nice day everyone !!!!!

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now , a couple of days after to have posted this… I am still looking to this painting and I am loving it.

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Saatchi on Line chose Caio Fern as Art of Day !!

 

Saatchi on Line , the site of the Saatchi Gallery chose this work as Art of day , today 7/24/2011 

http://www.saatchionline.com/art/Painting-Acrylic-No-Tittle/85288/1309748/view

Acrylic on canvas by Caio Fern 2011

This gallery contains 2 photos.

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2010 – when the earlier painting values from the year 2000 to 2002 were taken back and recreated.

2010 – when the earlier painting values from the year 2000 to 2002 were taken back and recreated.

This 2010 year was very important to my production. I kept a good regularity in my studio, published two books about my paintings and wrote an entire novel published in October.
About the painting, I felt that was taken back some values and concepts worked during the years of 2000, 2001 and 2002 and adding with everything I had made on the last years. Colors , pictorial values and the return to focusing on psychological and spiritual search allowing the brush strokes and plots being manifested by itself while I wasn’t so concerned with the subject represented. Sure that what was made during the year of 2008 and 2009 still appears on this production in a very obvious way…. what isn’t happening with the current 2001 paintings I have made now at the time I right this text.
So I believe that 2010 decisions have been fundamental to what have happened in my studio now ( June 2011 ).
Most part of the painting exhibited on this post give me huge pleasure , satisfaction and makes me wonder how I am going to develop my work from then. At the end of 2010 I was very happy with what I got in my studio. I hope you enjoy it .

The production and the directions of 2011. Paintings by Caio Fern.

The production and the directions of 2011. Paintings by Caio Fern.
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I like so much to keep the Welter traditions…. one of my favorites is every six months to post the production of the year.2011 has been a year where I only kept pushing harder what I was doing during 2010. Harder and more intense.If 2010 was a year where I broke the “pure” Mein Welt aesthetic mixing it with the values of my earlier years and generating a new way to dig deeper what I have searched for the last 12 years, 2011 has been the moment where I take it all and focus on the main target narrowing into very personal view of the individual as spiritual and psychological being.The relationship with the external world is only noticed by the way the matter reflects the material light and the effects it has under the psychological developing and movements….But , It has been one month or so that I don’t paint , I feel I have lost even more control of this process I have never controlled anyway. I am Feeling that soon I will go back to studio but I have no idea of what is going to happen or what direction the work will want to take.
Hope you like these works…. at least we can say that the 2011 production so far can turn into an solo exhibition already. I feel lazy… but when I see what I’ve done , I am not so lazy.
thank you all that have supported and followed my work this year.

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Caio Fern – Acrylic on canvas 2008

Caio Fern – Acrylic on canvas 2008 

 

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