Me doesn’t we. Acrylic on canvas by Caio Fern, 2012.


ME DOESN’T WE.
Jesus Christ is the only Truth.
ME DOESN’T THEY.the name of that place is place and is only another place.
She said I am brand new and this is only my third reincarnation on this planet.
I don’t know who you are and I am very inclined to do not care.
somebody doesn’t love me and nobody never will.
Somebody loves me and everybody always will.
This is not your business.
I am the one supposed to deal with it.

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Today was one of those days … nothing worked , I spent 6 hours working on this painting and it was a problem after the other.
From the start I didn’t want to paint but I had promised that today I would at least start  one new work.
All went wrong, I was for so reason so anxious and it made all become a problem. I didn’t see what I was doing, so immersed in my own thoughts that I didn’t pay attention on what I was looking at and not even the painting itself. I only noticed that nothing was going right, all the plots and spots were not working and the painting was getting more and more horrible, shallow and cheap. I didn’t like one single brush stroke.
I still don’t.
Then I started to cut, and all I had imagined went wrong again.
Incredible, when everything is going right the world around seems like heaven, when everything is wrong, the studio gets too small, I get all clumpy and make everything fall to the floor, the elbow touches the wet paint……
I took a picture to post and the computer simply didn’t open the new photo. I spent more than one hour trying to upload the photo from the camera to the laptop. I had to invent another way to do it and I don’t understand anything about computers.
Not saying I am now very late for going to my job.
I never give up. hahah.
Yes, the photo sucks but this is the smaller problem. I am not sure if I am going to work on this again. I will see it today when arrive form job or tomorrow when I will have more time.
In the end I always win, I finished a painting and posted even with everything against. What would be an horrible day of failure became my personal victory over it. It is like every day I say to the fleshy life of this dimension of existence : bitch please, I am bigger than you.

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