I’ve made very few revisions on small details of this post that is the most important of my life as a painter… people didn’t realise this, and shouldn’t…. but after this, posted in the end of 2012, I stoped to paint for a while … .. what makes this little series definitive. …… to people who says I never finish anything…..
Yesterday I was talking to my dear friend “golden angel” and all of sudden my last paintings have been much clear to me, the meanings and the facts surrounding them.
Below is the explanation I gave to her about what have happened these days in my studio and explanation about the last 4 or 5 paintings I’ve made:
I spent the entire morning in the studio burning my brain to figure out a way to compose what I have in mind. I think I got.
One or two nights ago I had many dreams, weird ones. I woke up the whole night because of them… not nightmares, only weird. In the morning I woke up and started to write a dialog. I want to write this dialog on the canvas after to finish the painting. It is weird and quite evil but has a good end. It is about Jesus, Nazis, the Nephilims (Giants) of the book of Genesis, genetic experiences, sex, blood lines, South America, but all very condensed in very few lines and I don’t think people will notice it all. But will all be there very clear. I can’t explain. The title of the work will be Stag, following the works I am doing where I write words deer related….. venison, fawn, doe and now stag. I see this dialog as a way to show I got rid of all the past and devils haunting my life.
- venison was about flesh, its influences in our acts and lives, and the fact I am eating meat now.
- fawn, like a rebirth, a new hope and life.
- Doe was about fatality of life, the nature of the women and female.
- Stag will be about blood. The blood of Jesus, the blood lines described in the Bible from Adam to Jesus and the nephilims’ descendent, and the nazis experiment and ideals about a perfect blood line and the contemporary concept about transhumanism…… blood in general, the animal blood in us and the importance it has had during all the History including to God.
———————below is the dialog I intend to work on my next painting —————————————————————–
Stag – A South American dialogue between a Traditional Nazi ( Joseph Mengele’s assistant’s granddaughter ) and a Reborn Fundamentalist Christian painter. – Penis, neck and chest used to bleed like a hunted stag. – It has been a trophy, Mein Lieber. – Eu, Ich.. I mean, I am not. – Isn’t you who decidesss. – Warum werent sie verhaftet, wenn in diesem Teil der Welt angekommen? Desse lado do mundo ? – Speak only the devil’s language which came from North. – Eu don’t know it very well…prefiro na lingua que eu penso. – Isn’t you who choosesss. But for your comfort, me neither. – Why weren’t they arrested when arrived to this side of the world? – Their services and knowledge seemed to please and satisfy all parts involved here. – Does my blood belong to their blood line? – Nein, you came from their victims. – Am I one of their experiments? – Sie sind nicht. – Because I had one very strong genetic characteristic of their experiments. – If you say so… let’s call it a coincidence. – Coincidence isn’t a very scientific or spiritual term, is it? And stop to play with your thighs in front of me. – I know your weakness. – You are not the Frau I am supposed to take. – Oh, I am sorry. Are you supposed to take only one now? We both know you don’t like this rule, Stag. – When Jesus called I answered. Now I am washed in His blood. They can’t touch me anymore. – Blood blood blood. It is all about blood….. and blood lines. – Not even you are able to touch me. Stop to hunt. Nobody can. – It is all about blood line. Has been since from the very beginning, from Adam. – I don’t care. I am free. Eu sou livre. – Stag. – He made me much more than this. Essa foi nossa ultima conversa e contato. Eu te lanço no abismo, Nephilim, junto com sua suastica. ( That was our last conversation and contact. I throw you into the abyss, Nephilim*, along with your swastika ).
*The Nephilim were the “sons of God” ( fallen Angels ) who took the “daughters of men” according to Genesis 6:4, and generated a new breed not approved by God.